Trudging through

Rough week at law school this week.

While I really do appreciate the support, it seems like when people want to help they just tell me things like It will be okay, You only have a few months left, You only have a few weeks left of this semester, You've done it before so you'll do it again. But maybe I won't be able to get through it this time. And even if I get through it, "a few" weeks and months is a lot to me -- especially when they are this miserable. It's a crappy few weeks/months with too much work, not enough sleep, feeling miserable, perpetual anxiety. I just want to go home -- real home, to Cape Cod -- and sleep for a month straight without eating, working out or seeing anyone. Literally, when this is all over, I want to not wake up for a month.

I don't want to feel stressed out all the time. I don't want to feel high strung and jumpy. I want to be spontaneous. I don't want just one "fun" thing of the day, especially when that one "fun" this is going on the training bike at the gym at 5:45 a.m. I want to spend a long time at the grocery store and cook dinner. I don't want "sleeping late" to mean sleeping until 5:30 a.m. I want to be more laid back and easy going. I want to read novels and do the crossword puzzle. I want to listen to This American Life and Radio Lab. I want to go to pick-up frisbee games until dark, or whenever I feel like leaving. I don't want to burst into tears for no reason other than the stress of it all. I want back the confidence in myself that I used to have.

When will it end?

Officially an Intern

Wowzers, I am pretty tired after my first day of work! I'm interning at the American Bar Association. They have an international division called Rule of Law Initiative and I am working within their Latin America and Caribbean office. So far it's great! Basically we are consultants for international development that focuses on legal systems and promoting good governance and rule of law. The projects involve developing legal systems and laws, implementing reform to make countries have better governance and stronger rule of law. They just got grants to start multi-year projects in 3 countries: Guatemala, Nicaragua, and Belize. They already do work in Mexico, Ecuador, and Panama. I'm super excited and already have fun assignments to work on. For example, part of my job is to read news from Latin America (in English and Spanish) and keep the group informed about daily going-ons. How cool is that!?

Other cool things about the internship: there is a roof top for eatin' lunch, a park a block away, the White House a block away, it's a 20 min walk from my apartment, I have my own nice cube, computer, printer, phone and desk, there's a fitness center (yet to be seen) and my hours are 9-5:30ish. Hurrah!

I made a little shopping trip because I felt a little under-dressed. I also signed up for the JCC gym which is across the street from my sublet apartment. I'm pretty exhausted and didn't get much done on the paper front. Boo.

It's official

I am halfway through my graduate degrees! It's 1:52 a.m. I just finished my last paper of this quarter. I'm home, safe and sound. Wish I could sleep late tomorrow, but I have class at 9 (a mere formality, no?).

I have now completed:
3/5 law semesters
2/3 masters quarters.

Woo! I'm doin' it. Making my way...

Me sleepy, time for bed.

Made it to Friday

Quick updates --

I have been laying off the running this week (and next) because my heel is sore. I'm afraid it's plantar fasciitis. This means lots of elliptical. I miss running and being outside. :( I think riding should be okay, so I'm going to head out for a ride this weekend.

I was offered my dream internship in DC! Very excited about it for so many reasons. More on that later. The jobs, the friends, the family, the new (diverse! international!) city -- cannot wait!

I went to PILG Auction last night. Open bar (which I can never seen to get my money's worth), fun mingling, dressed up fancy, and had a good 80s cover band. I thought I was going to get pulled over when I was driving home because I was so tired I was driving terribly.

The quarter ends next week. I have 1 15 page paper; 1 10 page paper/final exam; 1 25 page paper; 1 presentation; 1 20 page paper. I'm sleep deprived and my head is spinning. Spring break is coming up!

Um, hi. It's March. Can't believe that.