I am having such a hard time just finishing it up. Every day drags on, my studying is ever-more passive, and I'm sleeping (well, trying, anyway) more to avoid studying. It's not that I don't care. Believe me, I care. I care a whole lot whether I pass my last exam. I am even motivated to study. I understand it's my job and that's what should fill my day. I've cleared my schedule more than it has been since my bike trip. It seems I lack focus and, specifically, I just lack the energy to fight hard. The night before my exam a few days ago, I went for a walk and got ice cream. No studying. No dire need to sleep a lot. No extra tabbing or printed outline. No driving to school for silence and assured internet. I just don't have the energy for it anymore.
Back to my three days of studying. The exam is Thursday morning. After that, freedom/anxiety -- until grades come out.
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